It used to be that the one and only time I ever enjoyed my week was the few hours I got to spend hanging out with my mom. She has always been the only person to never push me away, be embarrassed to be seen with me in public, or neglect me because I was born with the wrong parts. But I guess that’s all over. After spending 23 years being ignored by my dad, I’m going to have to deal with my mom finding ways to get rid of me too. It’ll be easier to just not deal with anybody else ever again.
Might seem childish to some people, but it truly saddened me. I’ve always put everything behind for my family. I’m used to my dad and extended family not wanting anything to do with me, but I’ve always been glad that I could count on my mom to be around and not always want to cut time short. But all good things must come to a end I guess. I’m officially alone with no body and I guess I’ll have to live with it. But being broke and unable to pay my bills, or rent, or buy food I wont be alone for long.
We all have very many weaknesses and things to stress us. My stress comes from my crappy job, and the stress is harsh enough that it triggers my one true weakness; which is to destroy a cigarette in under 5 minutes. I hate the feeling, like I’m not in controll. I tried quitting one week ago, and thanks to my work stress I picked up again. 6 days later. At one point I went three months before I picked up again, but that was before my stress his breaking point.
I don’t know what to do, or even how to deal with this. There are days I just feel like running away and hiding under a rock til it all goes away, but I know I cannot do that. I have to push forward and be the strong person I used to be. But these days I’m nothing but a shell of that person. A rather large shell as well. Depression was also caused by my stress and it has made me lose all forms of motivation, so I also don’t properly try to stay fit and healthy.
Just once I wish I could find someone who knows exactly what I feel, and I kknow I am not the only one out there who is dealing with this. Maybe there is a support group, but if there is I don’t know about it.
tumblrbot said: ROBOTS OR DINOSAURS?
Robot dinosaurs. Best of both worlds.
I QUIT SMOKING!
I’ve been smoking cigarettes for almost 10 years, and I am proud to say I’ve taken the final step to quitting! I figure by this time next week, I’ll be over my grumpiness and we’ll be set!
I got one! Latina Beauty VoxBox to be exact! I’m so stoked! Current favorite products have to be the Veet ready to use wax strips! I’ve already used them, and they’re amazing! As well as the BBW Shea body wash! It’s so awesome! I’m happy! I hope I qualify for a VoxBox again! After reading some of the product reviews, I plan on going out and actually buying some stuff that I haven’t tried before :)
Sometimes in life we need to hide who we really are. It’s not something that we specifically want to do, but at times we need to in order to survive, or even be accepted. Maybe it’s time to let those we love know, but the knowledge that things will never be the same is upsetting. Especially knowing that those loved ones, will shun you due to the fact that you aren’t what they think you are.
50 Shades of Eh
Almost completed the 50 Shades of Grey trilogy. Not bad, not good. Slightly upsetting, especially from the middle of the second book. I’ll know tomorrow if I like the final installment.
You have nothing to fear, but fear itself- FDR
I received my invite to possibly review a Latina Beauty VoxBox, filled out the survey, and now just biding my time til I discover whether I recieve one! I’m excited! I would love to be selected! I would be so happy, and I love this idea so much!
Who loves the idea of a beauty themed voxbox catered towards Latina Influensters?
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